Why?

Why does it hurt so much when the words come from you?

Why does it matter so much?

When words spoken were far but few

For simply for you it never mattered as such

Almost two years and still counting

Only I know what I’ve given up

Been long gone now but my heart continues thumping

After every sore tear filled hiccup

What does it matter to you?

How much I care or may even dare?

You’ve never known the truth and never will know …

Of what I’ve been stripped off bare…

Guess I’m never going  to share

I tried hard…really hard…

To convince myself that ‘I’ve moved on’

But I failed every single time…

At every single attempt…

Fell hard on every stone I stumbled upon

Death seems an easy way out

To dissolve the pain forever

But that’s not what I am about

To have fought in vain and won never

You know that feeling when you’ve been hard hit

Feeling helpless and like a complete jerk

A piece of puzzle  with nowhere to fit

Lonely and lost..can’t even lurk…

For only I know…It’s the biggest price I’ve paid

For the sake of ‘friendship’

A façade upon myself I laid

That I’ve held onto every time I did trip

Guess you’ll never guess

The truth behind  every scene

Maybe it’s better this way…more written and said less…

I’d rather dissolve in your arms unseen